How often do you ask yourself "Why"...?
As sinful people, we need to constantly keep our hearts in check.
Even (maybe especially) in missions and ministry we must always ask ourselves: "What is the real motivation, deep inside, that drives me to do this?"
When I look hard at my own heart I'm often disappointed to find my own selfish desires for some ounce of personal gain or glory at the root of my actions.
It takes digging, but you've got to find that root and replace it with a heart set on God's glory.
Missions can be sexy. There's no doubt about it.
Sadly, I see people "going" to the mission field to achieve a "radical" image and respect or acceptance in our Christian culture.
But even compassion is a motivation mis-guided.
If your heart's desire and driving motivation is not God's glory and simple obedience to him, its off-target.
There is a constant battle in me for the desires of my heart. I wish it didn't exist, but I'll keep fighting it as long as it does.
I've found that the best way to change my heart is through prayer and time with God.
More often than not, I go to prayer to change other things and yet, I'm the one that is changed.